Hey Lucky, Gosh, that's great! Thanks for your prayers and return e-mail
You know I believe "no body ever said this life was going to easy" is a greatly under estimated saying. Life is hard! but we have the choice to make the decision to face it head on and deal with it, than move on (when we're ready!!) or use some chemical to change our feelings instead of "processing" our feelings.
I feel we are all (the human race) capable of so much with our mind/spirits and emotions that somehow it feels like we're selling ourselves short to not "experience" these wonderful/painful feelings. I am now, 3 weeks free of Paxil, and it wasn't easy getting off,how can a street drug that's addictive be any worse than a antidepressant that keeps you in a state of weird symptoms for weeks later be worse.
The thing about suffering is eventually it will pass as time heals and makes you stronger, the antidepressants keep you from going a
ll the way
down but you never reach the part that you alone can heal. Hang in there, I am beginning to cry again when I'm touched by something, I watched the movie A Beautiful Mind again tonite , when I was taking Paxil I missed so much of the dear heart rending parts, Isn't it great being a human and having feelings. Embrace it! because in your deepest pain will lay your most awesome joy. Here's to living and feeling again.
Peace and love
Your Daddy must be so proud of you , I love the part where you held him in your arms, PRICELESS
Barbara
Lucky <beachgirlcinde
yahoo.com> wrote: Thank you Barbara for your kind note. I will keep you & your mother
in my prayers.
Its been--12 days without my daddy and its so strange. Everything is
just different. I have been very sad bu
t the bottom line is, I have
made it again without Paxil or anything.
When I lost my brother in 91 and sister in 2003, I was on Paxil and I
also took 1/2 nerve pill to get me through it each day. I took
nothing this time but an asprin for headache.
I feel a little weak and still cry but thats normal, I don't think
that is a reason to get back on anything.
I have to learn to feel this pain and live with it without any help,
other than what we have on here. This has been very suportive.
Thanks again.
- In PAXILyahoogroups.com, barbara <stargrlskater7...>
wrote:
>;
> Lucky , What a beautiful thing you did for your Dad, that should be
enough consolation to guide you into the next 100 yrs,
> I'm off Paxil for 5 days, I also have the same worry when my Mom
is going to die, stay strong YOUR A WINNER!!!!!!!!! WE ALL NEED TO
DEAL WITH OUR FEELINGS (THEY ARE REALLY OUR FRIENDS)My condolences to
you, your a good person with no reason to feel bad.
> Barbara
>
> Lucky <beachgirlcinde...> wrote:
>; Hi everyone, its almost a year off Paxil and I have done
good. I
> stayed home with my father with his lung and blockage problems and
he
> died in my arms yesterday. I know he is at peace but its still hard
to
> lose him.
>
> So far ok without the Paxil or anything. I think I have learned
self
> control....we can get through anything with faith and I know that
has
> carried me the past year.
>
> Everyone, take a moment to tell the ones you love "you love
them"....I
> did not know daddy was going to die yesterday and that is something
we
> never did in our relationship, but I wish I had told him before he
died
> how much I loved him.
>
.